In which Ceri rests
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I have never written much at all about the love of my life, but she's there, and real, and she really is the love of my life, and I of hers. Things have been very, very bad with us lately, in very large measure because she feels—rightly—that all the gender stuff got dumped on her and built up behind her back. She deserves better than that.

So I'm letting this journal go fallow, while I work on life with her. We have a lot to learn about what each other is like now, and about what our lives have been like in the long stretches apart from each other, and she needs to know that I'm not busily planting mines behind her that might go off at any moment. And for that matter I need to know that I really am giving life without drastic rewriting a full and fair opportunity, bringing together medical improvement, the unhappy but nonetheless resolving end of old projects, and all that stuff together with some real domestic partnership.

It hurt her very much to find this built up in secret. Part of what I owe her and our commitment is a public resolution to that. So, logging out here to see what we can do together.


Post-Easter check-in
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Not abducted by aliens yet, just having a busy time.

I got to host Mom for an Easter weekend visit, and it went really well. Neither of us is having a super-abundance of good news on a lot of fronts, but we had the time to visit and get to understand just how it is we're both doing and to talk through a whole lot, make some plans, weigh options, and have some fun along the way. Mom got to spend some time too with company she very much enjoys, and that's always good for her morale - too much isolation is a nasty drag when you're stuck with it rather than choosing it.

Next week, on the 15th, I have lasers ablating me! That is, the vascular surgery on my left leg to fix damaged vessels. As I understand it, my circulatory system isn't actually leaking right now, but the treatment will make it so that it won't be able to leak in the future, should I have any more vascular setbacks. That works for me. Dealing with the compression stockings is No Fun, but that's life, sometimes.

Spring is being gorgeous in Seattle this year. Lots of sun, lots of rain, some really dramatic wind. Looking forward to getting out of my current malaise and back to more activity.


Men, women, and risk
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Matthew Yglesias is far too technocratic to take without lots of grains of salt, but every so often he points at something interesting. This piece on gender differences in risk management is one such. He links to a study of high-ranked chess players which includes this fascinating bit:

This paper aims to measure differences in risk behavior among expert chess players. The study employs a panel data set on international chess with 1.4 million games recorded over a period of 11 years. The structure of the data set allows us to use individual fixed-effect estimations to control for aspects such as innate ability as well as other characteristics of the players. Most notably, the data contains an objective measure of individual playing strength, the so-called Elo rating. In line with previous research, we find that women are more risk-averse than men. A novel finding is that males choose more aggressive strategies when playing against female opponents even though such strategies reduce their winning probability.
He also links to a paper showing that men take more risks and get worse returns than women as individuals investing on their own in market trading.

The other interesting thing is that he's sincere enough about his technocracy to take the evidence seriously and say that male domination of the financial sector is something to look at and think about dealing with, rather than waving it all away just because it'd be inconvenient.




Music moment: "Beat It", gothic metal style
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Just like it says in the subject line. Give it a minute and a half to get out of the intro and into the main body of the song.


 

Weight Watchers, week 43
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 I'm still not tracking, since I'm just coming out of really major crisis-type action. Will resume measuring next week, honest.


City of Heroes: Some of the best NPC dialogue ever
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 Someone at the studio really, really earned their writing pay one day...

A series of really well-done missions in the upper teens starts off with the PCs helping out Faultline, a young man whose supervillain father was apparently responsible for demolishing an entire district of the city, rescue his impetuous would-be heroine girlfriend, Fusionette. And rescue her again, and some more, in fact. Then we get to find out what was up with Faultline's father and a lot of other skullduggery, and it's satisfyingly epic stuff.

Then, a dozen or more levels later, they turn up again, in the Rikti War Zone. They get kidnapped, too, and there is rescue action, and they help out with the next set of challenges. In the middle of a very big battle inside a Rikti vessel, the comments in blue turn up:



Yes, someone thought to have the NPC couple chattering exactly the way PCs do on the side. I love that.

Weight Watchers, week 42
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No measurement this week, as I'm in the middle of something yoinking my metabolism around a lot. But then it'll be done.
 

Music moment: Queensryche doing covers
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So it turns out that Queensryche has out an album's worth of cover songs, Take Cover. Here are the lads from Seattle giving a really excellent treatment to Pink Floyd's great "Welcome to the Machine".



In which there is real blood pressure progress
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To recap: last fall my blood pressure got up to about 200/112 in the doctor's office, at which my doctor expressed some surprise I hadn't already had a stroke, and I started in on treatment for it. This last week I reached some important decisions and started putting them into practice, and wow, it's paying off. Last night, 143/86, and this morning, 145/92. These are the best I've had yet, and I'm really hoping it's sustained.
 

In which there is good mood
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I'm around a couple of big turns this week, it looks like, and getting to look at new vistas of work to do and opportunities to reach for. I'll be writing it all up at more length soon, but for now I just wanted to say: I am a happy camper this afternoon.
 

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